Off my Chest

"outta sight, outta mind" is bull.  Its been about 10 months since I first laid eyes on you.  And from that moment, I was trapped.  Theres times where I STILL, feel trapped, by you.
As much as I continue to hate you (because if I stop I'm scared I'll feel something worse) there are many things I can still give you credit for.  I never believed in love at first sight, and although it was one sided and painful; nonetheless  it was love. 
I may hate your face, but I'll never say that you weren't the most gorgeous woman I've ever met.
I may not have liked how much you made me cry, but I learned how much of an effect you really had on me.
I may be so envious of your success and your diva ways, but its taught me that with effort I can be better than you.
I may still hear your voice mocking me everytime I want to give up, but its what keeps me from doing just that.
I may have hated when you walked by me, but I won't say that you're not the best dancer I've ever seen.

Its wierd; us.  Because there wasn't ever an "us".  It was just me and you.  And how we each felt, but we never gave eachother the chance to see what that was, or what it could've meant.

You're more of a haunting now in my mind.  You don't even contiously exist to me.  But then again, everytime I went with out seeing you and saw you again my world shattered. 
You haven't seen the last of me, because thanks to you.. I'm stronger than I ever was. 

And as for YOU and as for ME, I'll never say never