Just a regular lesbian, talking about regular stuff... that your family probably shouldn't see.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
COUPLE GETS MARRIED ON 100TH BIRTHDAY
For some people, it's never too late for love.
That's certainly the case for Forrest Lunsway and Rose Pollard, an Orange County, Calif. couple who were married this March 19, Forrest's 100th birthday. With a combined age of 190--Rose is a spring chicken--they're believed to be the world's oldest newlyweds.
A spokesman for the Guinness Book of World Records said they had been informed of the wedding and are set to verify it as a record. For 27 years, Forrest smoked a pack of cigarettes a day, and he still drinks the odd glass of wine or whiskey and 7-Up, he said in a recent interview with the The Daily. He attributes his longevity to never having had a desk job: He spent his youth trapping animals and selling their fur in Kansas before moving to California, where he worked as a pipe welder.
You can watch a video of them here:
Both Forrest and Rose had been married before, but were single when they met back in 1983 at a senior's dance. Though they soon started dating, wedding bells seemed unlikely.
'I told him up front I had no intention of getting married," Rose said. "But then one day he asked me 'how come we never got married? and I said 'because you never asked me.'"
''So he got down on one knee and said, 'Well I'm asking you now, just set the date.' I told him, 'I'll marry you on your 100th birthday.' And I did."
And being on the older side, the couple also has some wisdom to share on how to make a marriage work. Rose, 93, told The Daily: 'Take your time and get to know one another. Get to know if you like all the things that person stands for. ... Be forgiving and patient and say I love you once in a while."
Rose also told The Daily that their advanced age means that she and Forrest don't have many of the anxieties that can be a challenge for other newlyweds. "That's one of the things we can forget about--time. Because time doesn't mean that much."
And it's time well spent together: They both love ballroom dancing, and they want to kayak in Alaska and walk the coast of California.
"We've got many happy years left as I intend to stick around until I'm at least 110," Forrest said. "You've got to use it or lose it."
CORRECTION: The original version of this piece misstated Rose's age; it is 90, not 93.
(The Daily)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
A new more organized blog I started
I will be keeping this blog for sure. Just wanted to make something with a little bit more focus. SO I made a blog called GOD LOVES GAY LOVE. You can find this blog at http://Godlovesgaylove.blogspot.com Please enjoy. And follow that page as well.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Osama bin Laden is dead and buried at sea - conspiracy theory or true?
May 2, 2011 1:31 PM EDT
It may not be true that Osama bin Laden is dead and buried at sea, according to two Pakistani TV stations and some Americans, who feel he is still alive.
U.S. President Barack Obama announced on Sunday night that dreaded terrorist and al Qaeda leader bin Laden was killed in "a firefight" with U.S. forces led by the CIA. bin Laden was reportedly killed - shot on the head - in a mansion that was stormed by U.S. forces in Abbottabad, Pakistan.
Soon thereafter, to respect Islamic rituals and practice of burying a body in 24 hours, the U.S. forces smuggled his body out of Pakistan and buried it at sea. A senior U.S. official said that as it was difficult in finding a country where his body could be buried, they decided to bury him at sea.
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The AFP reported Pakistan television stations as saying that the lower half of Laden's face in the circulated death photo (source of photo unknown) is from one of his handout photos. The upper half of his face may be from another picture of dead body. A member of the AFP photo lab analyst examined the image and confirmed that in the death photo, the beard and the lower part of the image were most probably copied from one of bin Laden's handout photos and pasted onto the image of a different dead body.
Even among Americans, some still believe bin Laden is alive and well as neither the Talibans nor al Qaeda has come out with an official statement that bin Laden is dead.
One reveler in Time Square quipped that this is just a well-crafted media propaganda to boost Obama's flagging ratings before elections.
"If Osama was really been killed and buried at sea, why aren't clear evidence being produced? Why isn't the government showing us clear photos or videos of his dead body? Is he really dead? I doubt whether his body has been thrown into the sea," the reveler, who identified himself only as 'Nick' said.
Meanwhile, even if it is true that bin Laden is truly dead and truly buried at sea, it has failed to appease Islamic scholars, who claim that only those who died at sea, away from land, can be buried at sea.
As bin Laden died on land, he should have been buried on land, according to Islamic rites, that include placing the body in a grave with the head pointed toward the holy city of Mecca. Moreover, Muslim prayers have to be recited and the body need to be ritually washed, as is usually required by Islamic law. And, even if the body is buried at sea, it needs to be wrapped in a shroud and buried only after a brief Islamic service is held, the scholars said.
The scholars feel the Americans have humiliated the Muslims by disregarding Islamic practice and customs.
"The Americans want to humiliate Muslims through this burial, and I don't think this is in the interest of the U.S. administration," Omar Bakri Mohammed, a radical cleric in Lebanon, said.
"It is not acceptable and it is almost a crime to throw the body of a Muslim man into the sea. The body of bin Laden should have been handed over to his family to look for a country or land to bury him," another Islamic scholar from Iraq, Abdul-Sattar al-Janabi, who preaches at Baghdad's famous Abu Hanifa mosque, said.
"They can say they buried him at sea, but they cannot say they did it according to Islam," Mohammed al-Qubaisi, Dubai's grand mufti, said about bin Laden's burial. "Sea burials are permissible for Muslims in extraordinary circumstances. This is not one of them."
Another Muslim scholar also said a simple solution would have been to hand over bin Laden's body to his family or bury him in an unmarked grave.
"What the Americans have done is forbidden by Islam and could alienate Muslims further and anger them. It could trigger a retaliation," the scholar said.
OTHER UNANSWERED QUESTIONS
-> bin Laden's eye-catching mansion was around 1000 yards away from what is Pakistan's version of West Point military academy. Did Pakistan intelligence really not know that bin Laden was living in their midst? If Pakistan knew of bin Laden's whereabouts, did Pakistan double-cross United States by not sharing the information even after receiving billions of dollars in aid?
-> A U.S. national security official said "This was a kill operation." Why would the U.S. forces want a "kill operation" when bin Laden would be a million times more valuable if captured alive? And if indeed it was a "kill operation," why did the U.S. forces give bin Laden a chance to surrender, an offer which bin Laden supposedly refused, as reported by different media?
-> U.S. officials say the "firefight" lasted about 40 minutes. According to Muslim practice, a body should be buried in 24 hours. In the case of Saddam Hussein, his sons' bodies were embalmed and not buried within 24 hours. According to John Brennan, counter-terrorism advisor, "the burial of bin Laden's remains was done in strict conformance with Islamic precepts and practice." Why would U.S. forces act with such urgency and "respect" in burying the body of a person, who has killed over 2,500 Americans and snatched away the dreams of millions of others? Is it really true that the U.S. forces would simply bury the body of the world's most wanted man at sea?
-> Assuming that bin Laden's body was buried at sea, why did the U.S. forces act so hurriedly? They had 23 hours and 20 minutes to do away with his body - sufficient time for them to even transport the body to the United States, confirm the identity of the body properly and then dispose of the body.
-> Assuming bin Laden's body was indeed buried at sea, why can't the U.S. government release any official photo/video clip of bin Laden's body being buried at sea?
-> Assuming that U.S. forces had buried the body of bin Laden at sea, what did they do with the bodies of his son(s) and brother(s) and other terrorists who were killed in the raid? Were those bodies also buried at sea or laid in unmarked graves or brought to the United States?
Indeed, reports of bin Laden being killed and his body being disposed off so suddenly and quickly when the U.S. could not even find his trace for nearly a decade are somewhat hard to digest.
Read more: http://www.ibtimes.com/articles/140347/20110502/osama-bin-laden-is-dead-and-buried-at-sea-true-or-conspiracy-theory.htm#ixzz1LLiLNz4e
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
ARMADILLOS???
Armadillos Can Transmit Leprosy to Humans, Federal Researchers Confirm
By GARDINER HARRIS
Published: April 27, 2011
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Armadillos have never been among the cuddly creatures routinely included in petting zoos, but on Wednesday federal researchers offered a compelling reason to avoid contact with the armored animals altogether: They are a source of leprosy infections in humans.
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Using genetic sequencing machines, researchers were able to confirm that about a third of the leprosy cases that arise each year in the United States almost certainly result from contact with infected armadillos. The cases are concentrated in Louisiana and Texas, where some people hunt, skin and eat armadillos.
Leprosy, also known as Hansen’s disease, is an ancient scourge that has largely disappeared, but each year about 150 to 250 people in the United States and 250,000 in the world contract the illness. As long as the disease is identified relatively quickly, treatment with antibiotics — a one- to two-year regimen with three different drugs — offers an effective cure. But every year dozens of people in the United States do not recognize their skin lesions for what they are early enough and suffer lifelong nerve damage as a result.
Part of the problem is that doctors sometimes fail to consider leprosy in patients who have not traveled to parts of the world where the disease is endemic, like India, Brazil, Africa, the Philippines and other islands in the Western Pacific. Two-thirds of leprosy patients in the United States are people who have either lived or worked in such places before coming down with the illness.
But in a given year, about 50 to 80 people who have symptoms consistent with leprosy tell their doctors that they have not traveled to such areas or had any contact with someone with a leprosy infection. And in these patients, doctors may mistakenly dismiss consideration of a leprosy infection.
“These patients have always been a puzzle,” said Dr. Anthony S. Fauci, director of the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases.
Now researchers are hoping that their study leads doctors to ask one more question of patients who have skin lesions that are numb in the center: Any armadillos in your life?
Leprosy now joins a host of other infectious diseases — including flu, H.I.V./AIDS and SARS — that are known to have jumped from animals to humans. Flu is thought to have first crossed to humans from migratory waterfowl several hundred years ago. H.I.V./AIDS first crossed from a chimpanzee about 90 years ago.
Dr. Fauci said that about 70 percent of new emerging infectious diseases were known to have animal origins.
But one of the interesting aspects of leprosy is that transmission seems to have gone in both directions. Leprosy was not present in the New World before Christopher Columbus, and armadillos are indigenous only to the New World.
“So armadillos had to have acquired it from humans sometime in the last 400 to 500 years,” said Dr. Richard W. Truman, a researcher at the National Hansen’s Disease Program in Baton Rouge, La., and an author of the armadillo study, which was published Wednesday in The New England Journal of Medicine.
Some studies have shown that as many as 20 percent of armadillos in some areas are infected with leprosy.
Armadillos now range from Colorado to North Carolina and have a similar habitat to opossums. Few armadillos live long enough in the wild to be seriously affected by the infection, Dr. Truman said, but those in laboratories suffer many of the same problems as humans and eventually die of liver and kidney failure.
The microbe that causes leprosy, Mycobacterium leprae, is a fragile one. It does not grow in laboratory petri dishes, and survives only a week or two in moist soil. Indeed, the only animals in which it is known to flourish are humans and armadillos, and researchers have long used armadillos to grow the disease, although its presence in armadillos predates such research. Because of this, researchers have speculated that some share of human leprosy cases reported in the United States and other parts of the Americas resulted from contact with armadillos, but there has not been definitive proof until this study.
The fragility of the leprosy bacterium suggests that infections result from something more than casual contact with an armadillo, Dr. Truman said.
“The important thing is that people should be discouraged from consuming armadillo flesh or handling it,” Dr. Truman said.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Anyone ever do this? :p
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Show me another »My friend said she masterbates in the tanning bed and its normal, all girls do it...I DONT?
Is this common , has anyone ever done this or do it on a reg. basis. It makes me sick to my stomach to know that I lay on the same bed that women might masterbate one.... ugh
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Frank Capo... It's def. not the same.I work at a hotel and all the sheets and what have you are washed daily and thrown out if the tinest stain may appear on them. With the tanning bed they just wipe it down with windex real quick and you go in....
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There's nothing wrong with masturbating, itself, but it also depends on your sexual preferences, but to do it on "public property" like your friend did, is really inappropriate.
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Sunday, April 24, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Tonight
Tonight, is the first night I haven't laid on the phone with you before bed and just said goodnight on Skype...
It got me thinking back to my weird life before I did that everynight. I remember you gave me your number the 2nd day we talked, and I was really nervous to call you. And then when I finally got up the guts to call you you were too tired lol. Which made me feel like I failed lol. But then the next night came and you were tired again. BUT THEN the night after came... and I heard your voice for the first time. Soft and sweet. And thats what I'll cling to when I sleep tonight.
Sweetdreams baby
It got me thinking back to my weird life before I did that everynight. I remember you gave me your number the 2nd day we talked, and I was really nervous to call you. And then when I finally got up the guts to call you you were too tired lol. Which made me feel like I failed lol. But then the next night came and you were tired again. BUT THEN the night after came... and I heard your voice for the first time. Soft and sweet. And thats what I'll cling to when I sleep tonight.
Sweetdreams baby
For everyone who may need this today.
The Lord is my rock,
and my fortress, and my deliverer;
my God, my strength, in whom I take refuge;
my shield, and the horn of my salvation,
and my high tower.
Psalm 18:2
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever.
Psalm 73:26
For You light my lamp;
the Lord my God illumines my darkness.
Psalm 18:28
Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy laden,
and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
And He has said to me,
"My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness"
Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Psalm 61:2
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me...
Psalm 23
Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.
John 14:1-3
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
and my fortress, and my deliverer;
my God, my strength, in whom I take refuge;
my shield, and the horn of my salvation,
and my high tower.
Psalm 18:2
My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart,
and my portion for ever.
Psalm 73:26
For You light my lamp;
the Lord my God illumines my darkness.
Psalm 18:28

and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
And He has said to me,
"My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness"
Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
From the end of the earth I call to You when my heart is faint;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
Psalm 61:2
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me...
Psalm 23
Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.
John 14:1-3
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18
Ever wonder why Christians eat pork? Even though the Bible says not to?
The Holiness Code, Leviticus 17-26
is God's Law For Israel
As Christians, our holiness is a FREE gift from God, received when God imputes His righteousness to us at salvation.
Leviticus 17 to 26 contains specific rules of conduct aimed at the nation of Israel, while they were living in the land of Palestine, under the Law of Moses.
Leviticus 18:22 and 20:13 are favorite verses of those who demean gays in general and gay Christians in particular. Christians who have a peculiar obsession with these verses insist that gay Christians must live under the Law of Moses but that they themselves do not have to obey the Law of Moses as it is given in Leviticus.
Nongay Christians attempt to convince gay people that the only way to be pleasing to God is to live under the rules given in Leviticus 18:22 and 20:13.
In Gay Christian 101 - Spiritual Self-Defense For Gay Christians, I list 18 possible ways to interpret the Levitical Holiness Code, where it is alleged to deal with homosexuality. It is well worth your time to get and read this important book.
Two verses in the Holiness Code
which non-gay Christians
love to quote
to gay men and lesbians.
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“Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination.” Leviticus 18:22.“If a man also lie with mankind, as he lieth with a woman, both of them have committed an abomination: they shall surely be put to death; their blood shall be upon them.” Lev 20:13
Leviticus 18:22 and 20:13
are NOT about Homosexuality.
There is no logical analogy between ancient cult prostitutes who worshiped the fertility goddess and modern gay men and lesbians. Leviticus 18:22 & 20:13 are God's prohibition of shrine prostitution, not homosexuality.
That is why God placed the Holiness Code prohibition in v. 22, right after v. 21, which forbids worship of Molech. The Bible addresses shrine prostitution under the rubric of Molech worship.
Monday, April 18, 2011
repost from JC Crawford's notes
The Mayonaise Jar of life
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
When 24 hours in a day is not enough;
remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and start to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
it into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again
if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything
else
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous ‘yes.’
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
‘Now,’ said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things – God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions
Things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the things that matter like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else –
The small stuff.
‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ he continued,
‘there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
important to you.
So…
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time
to clean the house and fix the dripping tap.
‘Take care of the golf balls first –
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.’
One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
‘I’m glad you asked’.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.’
When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
When 24 hours in a day is not enough;
remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and start to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
it into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again
if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand
and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything
else
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous ‘yes.’
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
‘Now,’ said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things – God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions
Things that if everything else was lost
and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the things that matter like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else –
The small stuff.
‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ he continued,
‘there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
important to you.
So…
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
There will always be time
to clean the house and fix the dripping tap.
‘Take care of the golf balls first –
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.’
One of the students raised her hand
and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
‘I’m glad you asked’.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.’
Sunday, April 17, 2011
For the strongest girl I know.
Ever since March 23, I've wanted to spend every single day protecting you. Protecting your ears from bad words, protecting your heart from pain, and your eyes from terrifying things.
But neither one of us would have ever thought that I would need to protect you from something like this. And I know neither of us had any idea it could happen.
But so the promise I will make to you is to always be here. To always lend you an ear. A shoulder. And you can use my shirt like a tissue.
Babygirl stay strong.
R.I.P. Nick Addison
But neither one of us would have ever thought that I would need to protect you from something like this. And I know neither of us had any idea it could happen.
But so the promise I will make to you is to always be here. To always lend you an ear. A shoulder. And you can use my shirt like a tissue.
Babygirl stay strong.
R.I.P. Nick Addison
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
come what may
love.
_________________ the absence of love.
When I was in highschool I was the girl that wore my heart on my sleeves and there was no hiding the fact that I wanted to be in love. And that i wanted it to work badly with anyone who gave me the time of day. As soon as I graduated I found an amazing girl who I fell deeply and madly in love with. But being so young, people change, and feelings change.
I was bitter, after that didn't workout I was downright angry. It wasn't either of our faults I just didn't know if I believed in the one thing I had always clung to. I was gay, and I had always hung on to that was a simple me being in love with another woman. But without someone to love, and a new belief that it didn't exist; I became reckless. I had relations with a girl I never asked her name, objectified women daily, and had a small encounter with a porn star.
But for an entire year, my values were gone.
Someone told me this week that she wanted to fall in love when she turned 25. It doesn't work like that. I didnt want to be in a relationship. I didn't want to deal with something else that WOULD fail, or so I believed. And I know its too soon to say that I've reached a point of immediate happiness. But in my mind HAPPINESS is the journey not the destination.
I've met the most amazing girl who I got to surprise this last weekend. She had no idea I was coming to visit at all. Which meant that the first few looks I got from her were the most pure and honest looks I've gotten in years. I won't forget a single smile she gave me last weekend. I doubt I'll ever forget a single moment. Down to her lacing her fingers through mine at a bbq and asking me if I was comfortable.
Then theres the situation where I feel like she's always been a part of me, like I've never been without her. Everytime we got into the bed it was just understood that we were going to be holding eachother naked. And no I don't mean in a sexy gonna fuck way. I simply mean the artistic beauty of 2 women finding their entire happiness laying bare clinging to one another without a care in the world.
I pray that everyone I know gets to experience that. I pray that the women I've hurt will overcome and realize that they are worth more than the way I treated them. And I hope they get to wake up with the same goofy smile on their face everyday that I do.
_________________ the absence of love.
When I was in highschool I was the girl that wore my heart on my sleeves and there was no hiding the fact that I wanted to be in love. And that i wanted it to work badly with anyone who gave me the time of day. As soon as I graduated I found an amazing girl who I fell deeply and madly in love with. But being so young, people change, and feelings change.
I was bitter, after that didn't workout I was downright angry. It wasn't either of our faults I just didn't know if I believed in the one thing I had always clung to. I was gay, and I had always hung on to that was a simple me being in love with another woman. But without someone to love, and a new belief that it didn't exist; I became reckless. I had relations with a girl I never asked her name, objectified women daily, and had a small encounter with a porn star.
But for an entire year, my values were gone.
Someone told me this week that she wanted to fall in love when she turned 25. It doesn't work like that. I didnt want to be in a relationship. I didn't want to deal with something else that WOULD fail, or so I believed. And I know its too soon to say that I've reached a point of immediate happiness. But in my mind HAPPINESS is the journey not the destination.
I've met the most amazing girl who I got to surprise this last weekend. She had no idea I was coming to visit at all. Which meant that the first few looks I got from her were the most pure and honest looks I've gotten in years. I won't forget a single smile she gave me last weekend. I doubt I'll ever forget a single moment. Down to her lacing her fingers through mine at a bbq and asking me if I was comfortable.
Then theres the situation where I feel like she's always been a part of me, like I've never been without her. Everytime we got into the bed it was just understood that we were going to be holding eachother naked. And no I don't mean in a sexy gonna fuck way. I simply mean the artistic beauty of 2 women finding their entire happiness laying bare clinging to one another without a care in the world.
I pray that everyone I know gets to experience that. I pray that the women I've hurt will overcome and realize that they are worth more than the way I treated them. And I hope they get to wake up with the same goofy smile on their face everyday that I do.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
What scares me
Obviously the distance, This picture has always been what I described as the image of love(minus the unibrow). Regardless of what the original artist had intended this is how I perceive it.
LOVE and relationships can be amazing, the closeness and connection you feel for another person. Where you finish eachothers thoughts, and subcontiously mock one another's body language. The way your finger tips can always find the other persons. How exposed every part of you becomes to another person.
The downsides however, are when you cut people out from the rest of the world, and only have that one person who understands everything about you and who you are. You can't stand to be too far from eachother or it will kill you. And sometimes, you often find yourself... stuck.
I've constantly compared sex to life. And believe that they completely compare to eachother metaphorically. In that some people are shy, and some crazy. Sometimes as much as you want to live, you just can't. Sometimes you don't know where to start. And sometimes you don't know how to reach your goals. But with all of them, if you keep trying, you'll persevere.
However, relationships are funny. Relationships are their own spectrum. A relationship is something that can't be compared, or understood, and there is no right or wrong way to have them. I guess... I guess relationships are just kind of like music. Some songs are about love, and some songs are about being stuck.
I preach allll day long about not being afraid.. and I guess I'm just going to have to start walking the walk.
LOVE and relationships can be amazing, the closeness and connection you feel for another person. Where you finish eachothers thoughts, and subcontiously mock one another's body language. The way your finger tips can always find the other persons. How exposed every part of you becomes to another person.
The downsides however, are when you cut people out from the rest of the world, and only have that one person who understands everything about you and who you are. You can't stand to be too far from eachother or it will kill you. And sometimes, you often find yourself... stuck.
I've constantly compared sex to life. And believe that they completely compare to eachother metaphorically. In that some people are shy, and some crazy. Sometimes as much as you want to live, you just can't. Sometimes you don't know where to start. And sometimes you don't know how to reach your goals. But with all of them, if you keep trying, you'll persevere.
However, relationships are funny. Relationships are their own spectrum. A relationship is something that can't be compared, or understood, and there is no right or wrong way to have them. I guess... I guess relationships are just kind of like music. Some songs are about love, and some songs are about being stuck.
I preach allll day long about not being afraid.. and I guess I'm just going to have to start walking the walk.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Off my Chest
"outta sight, outta mind" is bull. Its been about 10 months since I first laid eyes on you. And from that moment, I was trapped. Theres times where I STILL, feel trapped, by you.
As much as I continue to hate you (because if I stop I'm scared I'll feel something worse) there are many things I can still give you credit for. I never believed in love at first sight, and although it was one sided and painful; nonetheless it was love.
I may hate your face, but I'll never say that you weren't the most gorgeous woman I've ever met.
I may not have liked how much you made me cry, but I learned how much of an effect you really had on me.
I may be so envious of your success and your diva ways, but its taught me that with effort I can be better than you.
I may still hear your voice mocking me everytime I want to give up, but its what keeps me from doing just that.
I may have hated when you walked by me, but I won't say that you're not the best dancer I've ever seen.
Its wierd; us. Because there wasn't ever an "us". It was just me and you. And how we each felt, but we never gave eachother the chance to see what that was, or what it could've meant.
You're more of a haunting now in my mind. You don't even contiously exist to me. But then again, everytime I went with out seeing you and saw you again my world shattered.
You haven't seen the last of me, because thanks to you.. I'm stronger than I ever was.
And as for YOU and as for ME, I'll never say never
As much as I continue to hate you (because if I stop I'm scared I'll feel something worse) there are many things I can still give you credit for. I never believed in love at first sight, and although it was one sided and painful; nonetheless it was love.
I may hate your face, but I'll never say that you weren't the most gorgeous woman I've ever met.
I may not have liked how much you made me cry, but I learned how much of an effect you really had on me.
I may be so envious of your success and your diva ways, but its taught me that with effort I can be better than you.
I may still hear your voice mocking me everytime I want to give up, but its what keeps me from doing just that.
I may have hated when you walked by me, but I won't say that you're not the best dancer I've ever seen.
Its wierd; us. Because there wasn't ever an "us". It was just me and you. And how we each felt, but we never gave eachother the chance to see what that was, or what it could've meant.
You're more of a haunting now in my mind. You don't even contiously exist to me. But then again, everytime I went with out seeing you and saw you again my world shattered.
You haven't seen the last of me, because thanks to you.. I'm stronger than I ever was.
And as for YOU and as for ME, I'll never say never
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
lAST nights class was AWESOME!!!
My muscles are SOOOOooo sore from 3 days of Zumba. And my face hurts from smiling so much kuz of Miss Amber G. :D anyway.. short blog today. JUUUUuuust wanted to say hi.
My muscles are SOOOOooo sore from 3 days of Zumba. And my face hurts from smiling so much kuz of Miss Amber G. :D anyway.. short blog today. JUUUUuuust wanted to say hi.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
ugherhehhhrhrhrghhh
I'm so confused.. Its morning already! erghh. Like, eh why. This could possibly be a very whiny blog. I just want to go outside and scream at the top of my lungs! Actually that seems like a good idea.
Anyway, I have a ZUMBA class in Coffeeville tonight.
I guess I'm just super cranky kuz I stayed up too late last night trying to figure myself out and what I want lol. I'm real bad about doing that.
Ok now this blog makes it feel like I'm talking to myself so I'll live you with this to laugh at until later
http://www.zwani.com/graphics/funny_pictures/images/funny-pictures98.jpg
Anyway, I have a ZUMBA class in Coffeeville tonight.
I guess I'm just super cranky kuz I stayed up too late last night trying to figure myself out and what I want lol. I'm real bad about doing that.
Ok now this blog makes it feel like I'm talking to myself so I'll live you with this to laugh at until later
http://www.zwani.com/graphics/funny_pictures/images/funny-pictures98.jpg
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Children are taught homophobia
Tonight I was babysitting a group of 8 y.o. girls. One of them grabbed my phone and shouts, "lets see if her boyfriend is her background" go figure, it wasn't it was Jennifer Connelly.
So one of the little girls looks at it and goes "haha she's gay" jokingly. And went on about their business.
They weren't bothered by what could or couldn't be the truth. So you can't say that children are too dumb to pick up on things like that, when in fact they did, but it didn't matter.
However, had that have happened with a bunch of High School girls it wouldve been a totally different story.
Just sayin
So one of the little girls looks at it and goes "haha she's gay" jokingly. And went on about their business.
They weren't bothered by what could or couldn't be the truth. So you can't say that children are too dumb to pick up on things like that, when in fact they did, but it didn't matter.
However, had that have happened with a bunch of High School girls it wouldve been a totally different story.
Just sayin
Saturday, March 26, 2011
DAMN DOG
So one of the ladies that works out in my gym told me this story yesterday. I guess its sort of taken out of context but she's a very sweet lady who doesn't believe in punishing people for others actions.
So she's a mail lady. About a year ago she was delivering mail to someone who had a verocious chihuahua. So the chihuahua bit her on her ankle.. and her muscles were hanging out, real nasty scene. So she went to the hospital. Said she didn't want to press charges.
6 months later she received a check in the mail, and turns out the postal service was actually suing. So she went to the women's house and begged the lady to take back her check. And she wouldn't.
Wouldn't you know 3 months later while in route, she ran over the dog by accident?
So she's a mail lady. About a year ago she was delivering mail to someone who had a verocious chihuahua. So the chihuahua bit her on her ankle.. and her muscles were hanging out, real nasty scene. So she went to the hospital. Said she didn't want to press charges.
6 months later she received a check in the mail, and turns out the postal service was actually suing. So she went to the women's house and begged the lady to take back her check. And she wouldn't.
Wouldn't you know 3 months later while in route, she ran over the dog by accident?
Friday, March 25, 2011
No internet today grrr!!! So no blog until i get this fixed or get home. Just uploaded a new video to youtube though. I did an interview with JENNIFER OYA!! So until later, check that out and comment. Http://www.youtube.com/onstagewwhs
Thursday, March 24, 2011
I give up! You Fail
I give up! You Fail
If this is the one thing that makes you smile today. I have accomplished what I set out to do.
Or maybe you just raised your eyebrows.
Sooo last night my mom asked me in all seriousness if I had been crossdressing lol. When I was at mardi gras a guy gave me his number on the back of a receipt and she found it. It was a whole bunch of boxers, shoes, and condoms. Guess it just goes to show that when you're writing your number on something for a girl... try and write it on something that doesn't show your douchebaggery.
Hope you are all having a good day. I'll be posting a video shortly to my youtube about the dream I had last night. www.youtube.com/onstagewwhs
If this is the one thing that makes you smile today. I have accomplished what I set out to do.
Or maybe you just raised your eyebrows.
Sooo last night my mom asked me in all seriousness if I had been crossdressing lol. When I was at mardi gras a guy gave me his number on the back of a receipt and she found it. It was a whole bunch of boxers, shoes, and condoms. Guess it just goes to show that when you're writing your number on something for a girl... try and write it on something that doesn't show your douchebaggery.
Hope you are all having a good day. I'll be posting a video shortly to my youtube about the dream I had last night. www.youtube.com/onstagewwhs
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
R.I.P. Elizabeth Taylor
As many of you know, today Elizabeth Taylor passed away. Elizabeth Taylor has been a great source of inspiration for me. She was in the movie TAMING OF THE SHREW which was the first play I ever did. She was 79, and died of congestive heart failure.Click Here for Article.
Anytime I see of someone dying because of HEALTH related illnesses it makes me feel like were not doing enough on our part. And I don't mean by awareness, we can allllllllllllll tell everyone about heart problems and cancer but it won't prevent us from getting those illnesses ourselves.
Obviously working out is 1/2 keys to preventing any of these diseases and I'm happy that as a personal trainer and ZUMBA teacher I get to change those demographics.
As always... please check out my youtube and I will hopefully post again soon.
www.youtube.com/onstagewwhs
Anytime I see of someone dying because of HEALTH related illnesses it makes me feel like were not doing enough on our part. And I don't mean by awareness, we can allllllllllllll tell everyone about heart problems and cancer but it won't prevent us from getting those illnesses ourselves.
Obviously working out is 1/2 keys to preventing any of these diseases and I'm happy that as a personal trainer and ZUMBA teacher I get to change those demographics.
As always... please check out my youtube and I will hopefully post again soon.
www.youtube.com/onstagewwhs
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
What my blog's going to be about
I will try to post DAILY however... that probably won't happen. Basically I'll let you know how my day was though and MOST IMPORTANTLY WHAT I LEARNED. My days tend to be very motivational so check it out puhleaaase. Also be sure to check out my youtube videos at WWW.YOUTUBE.COM/ONSTAGEWWHS
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